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Crisis Brings Clarity

practicalmystic — Thu, 24 Jan 2008 02:32:03 +0000

It wasn’t too many years ago that news of a recession and the falling of stock prices would have been meaningless to me, mostly because I didn’t have any stock in anything and didn’t own a home. Being healthy and able to work myself to death gave me a sense of self-righteousness about monetary wealth. I would preach, much to my embarrassment now, about trusting God for our financial needs and not depending on savings accounts and retirement investments. Easy for me to say to all those wonderful people who took time each week to hear me preach and to pay my paycheck. Ah the simplicity of being young and naive! I wonder why someone didn’t just slap me or try to not pay me and see how well I practiced what I preached.
There is a subtle difference between living with faith that God will provide and being just plain irresponsible.
God has been faithful in providing for me anyway. This would lead me to believe that God is less interested in my being perfect than am I. Sure I’ve learned some painful lessons about debt and credit and needing versus wanting. But in the end, God has provided what I needed when I needed it regardless of me getting it all right.
Here we are in the midst of a panicking financial world. Those with wealth in investments are feeling the pain. But those who have nothing, still have nothing. I may have been naive about financial matters, but I have to say that there is a freedom in having nothing to lose (I think that was Janis Joplin’s line in Bobby Magee….). Financial crisis does bring clarity about what is needful and what is merely materialistic idolatry. I may not have known what I was talking about but the truth is still the truth. If God is not on the throne of our hearts, no amount of material wealth will satisfy. Perhaps this current crisis in the marketplace is all a corrective to the god of market-based living and a reminder that God is not mocked.

Insomnia Redeemed – Hope in the second week of Advent 2007

practicalmystic — Thu, 13 Dec 2007 23:27:58 +0000

I haven’t been able to post much the past few days. Travelling does me in. Insomnia and other sleep disorders are par for the course with Fibromyalgia. I have developed an adverse reaction to Ambien and Lunesta – I sleep walk and sleep eat to the tune of a 30 pound weight gain…and I needed to lose more than 30 pounds before this all started. So no medications, just giving the herbal remedies a try. This means I am unable to get to sleep until 5 or 6 am and then only for a few hours. Which means the pain I have raises to the level of tranisiton labor pains. Fortunely these pains move around from one muscle insertion point to another so I don’t get bored and I have relief in the area the pain has left.
If you are still reading this and are not totally bored with this list of complaints, I have found a way to redeem this experience. About five years ago, I learned several chants – Hebrew, Latin and Sanskrit. They are all prayers to God for clarity or mercy or disolution of delusions. Because I have practiced them so many times, they come to my mind automatically. So when the sleeplessness persists, my mind automatically goes to the Jesus Prayer “Om Jesu Christ” and then a few hours later to the Gayatri mantra (the most ancient prayer known to us) or to the Shema (the ancient prayer of the Hebrew people). As these prayers sing through my mind, I am lifted out of myself and into the presence of God. There I remember all the people who have asked me to pray for them. And I bring the battlefields of our earth to God’s attention. I remember the terribly disfigured and emotionally racked veterans of these most recent wars and I imagine their spirits to be healed. By the time the sun comes up, I am usually very relaxed and able to rest deeply with a sense of peace that is so full and abiding that it brings tears of joy to my eyes. I have no words to describe this. I can only say that I will gladly, fearlessly, welcome the sleeplessness and pain to reach this place of heaven on earth.
I offer you this prayer that has helped me re-imagine my own burdens: “O Lord, sculpt thou me according to thy desires.”

The Delusion of Sin

practicalmystic — Thu, 14 Dec 2006 17:39:02 +0000

We have a spiral staircase in our home that connects the basement with the two floors above it. It is a steel staircase (made by US Steel – it says so right on one of the railings). In it’s nearly 30 years of existence, these stairs had never been painted. We decided a nice coat of black Rustoleum would greatly improve it’s appearance. Six hours later, the stairs were looking pretty good. However, an unfortunate splatter on a new carpet, a few unintended spots on the otherwise white ceiling and inky black cuticles were vivid reminders of my amateur status.
Not knowing any better, I dabbed the carpet stain with Mineral Spirits. Did the same with the spot on the wall. To my horror, the black oil spread making the stains even worse. My on-line search yielded many solutions, including cutting the carpet out and gluing a new patch in it’s place. But I was determined not to go that route.
Application after application of Mineral Spirits and gentle dabbing, the carpet looks almost like new. Hours of soaking my hands in mineral spirits and then my fingers in nail polish remover eventually yielded minor improvement. It’s taken days of washing and a professional nail technician to restore my cuticles to some semblance of normalcy.
What does this have to do with the delusion of sin? Have you ever known a recent convert or a reformed addict? When newly “born again” we think we understand it all and that we will never be deluded again. But in reality we’re looking pretty much like that black stain in my carpet. Just a layer of delusion wiped away and we think we are in the clear. Yet the confusion remains – we are most in danger when we think we’ve finally “got it.” Instead, we’re just spreading the ink.
Each moment we spend in the presence of God, in prayer, in silence, in Scripture, in praise is like the mineral spirits dissolving the inky delusion just a little bit more. Time after time, day by day, the delusion gets a little less messy and the light of God that is there inside at all times shines through.

House

practicalmystic — Tue, 05 Dec 2006 01:10:33 +0000

I have become enamored with the TV show “House.” The main character, Dr. House, is an obnoxious but brilliant diagnosticians. His bedside manner is almost hateful but not quite. One suspects that underneath it all is a man who cares deeply about life. Dr. House is in chronic severe pain and can only function when on high doses of Vicodan.
Dr. House has a younger assistant neurologist who was recently transformed by a near-death experience. As a result this doctor has become a peaceful, contented, rarely angered human being. Dr. House cruelly tries to break his new found equanimity. I don’t have this quote completely right but it went something like this: “I need you to be angry. People who are at peace are happy to live in mud huts and meditate all day. Only people who are out-raged make a difference and change things.”
I can relate to Dr. House. I, too, am in chronic pain and I have days when Vicodan is the only thing that keeps me from total panic. I also can relate to his assistant. Every day I spend several hours in prayerful meditation. I am at peace with myself and with this world. I’m not so angry these days. I don’t have such a need to change much of anything except those things I am able to change. Only chronic illness could teach this to me.
But I wonder sometimes. I believe that the depth of prayer and conscious-living that I have come to know make a difference, probably much more difference than all my frantic activity of the 30 previous years. But I wonder. I used to be a change-agent. In any given situation, I knew how to make it better and I usually busted my butt to do so. Now, I don’t really care so much. I’ll do what I can but I don’t feel that I need to do so. I have more of a sense that things happen all in God’s good time. My efforts might be helpful once in awhile but only in a fleeting way, like the vapor of a burning candle.
I used to say “I’d rather burn out than rust out.” Perhaps I’ve done that. Or perhaps I have found a way to flow with the Spirit. Life is much better and I certainly don’t miss being angry. Still, I think of the t-shirt my daughter once gave my husband: “If you aren’t totally outraged, you aren’t paying attention.”

Overwhelmings

practicalmystic — Thu, 06 Jul 2006 15:50:55 +0000

The Shape of Living: Spiritual Directions for Everyday Life by David F. Ford utilizes the concept of being overwhelmed as a way that we are spiritual formed by the events in our lives and how we respond to those events. He calls these “overwhelmings” which got me to thinking.
We’ve had some overwhelmings in this part of the country – literally covered with a flood. Fortunately for us, we are fine – just lost a hunk of property to erosion from our creek that is usually 5 feet across and a few inches deep. Last week it was 35 feet across and about that deep, a raging river.
That makes me think about what it is really like to be overwhelmed when there is nothing to hang on to. I remember many times like that in my life, the last time being when I became too ill to work about five years ago and have since been in unremitting pain. I keep returning to the first chapter of John and to the 23rd Psalm, going deeply into meditation on phrases from those scriptures.
We’ve watched houses floating down our rivers, homes completely lifted off their foundations. It is no wonder that when people are overwhelmed, they dip into the darkness. Sometimes it appears that the darkness is all there is. Certainly I have had times when that was all I could see. In those times, it was only God holding me that saved me but I certainly was not aware that I was being held in the moment. Like those homes and pieces of homes swirling down the flooded rivers, there are times we have no choice but to just wait until we land and hope we don’t drown in the process. There is no ability to hold on to anything during those times. The floods move too quickly and unexpectedly.
We may not turn to what appears as darkness (whether it be drugs, sex or alcohol) but we might shrink back into being judgmental or clingy or angry or completely insecure or any number of other attitudes that are equally destructive. For myself, I have found that anything that I have judged negatively in someone else, I end up finding in myself at some point in time. Life just seems to me to be an adventure in one humbling experience (one overwhelming) after another with moments here and there where the light shines brightly and peace overwhelms into depths the darkness cannot reach.

Breastplate of St. Patrick

practicalmystic — Mon, 08 May 2006 14:38:42 +0000

The following is a prayer used by the Anglican church in it’s ministry of deliverance. This is a powerful prayer to counteract any sense of psychic attack. You will also find it in more traditional hymnals.

I bind unto myself today
The strong Name of the Trinity,
By invocation of the same
The Three in One and One in Three.

I bind this today to me forever
By power of faith, Christ’s incarnation;
His baptism in Jordan river,
His death on Cross for my salvation;
His bursting from the spicèd tomb,
His riding up the heavenly way,
His coming at the day of doom
I bind unto myself today.

I bind unto myself the power
Of the great love of cherubim;
The sweet ‘Well done’ in judgment hour,
The service of the seraphim,
Confessors’ faith, Apostles’ word,
The Patriarchs’ prayers, the prophets’ scrolls,
All good deeds done unto the Lord
And purity of virgin souls.

I bind unto myself today
The virtues of the star lit heaven,
The glorious sun’s life giving ray,
The whiteness of the moon at even,
The flashing of the lightning free,
The whirling wind’s tempestuous shocks,
The stable earth, the deep salt sea
Around the old eternal rocks.

I bind unto myself today
The power of God to hold and lead,
His eye to watch, His might to stay,
His ear to hearken to my need.
The wisdom of my God to teach,
His hand to guide, His shield to ward;
The word of God to give me speech,
His heavenly host to be my guard.

Against the demon snares of sin,
The vice that gives temptation force,
The natural lusts that war within,
The hostile men that mar my course;
Or few or many, far or nigh,
In every place and in all hours,
Against their fierce hostility
I bind to me these holy powers.

Against all Satan’s spells and wiles,
Against false words of heresy,
Against the knowledge that defiles,
Against the heart’s idolatry,
Against the wizard’s evil craft,
Against the death wound and the burning,
The choking wave, the poisoned shaft,
Protect me, Christ, till Thy returning.

Christ be with me, Christ within me,
Christ behind me, Christ before me,
Christ beside me, Christ to win me,
Christ to comfort and restore me.
Christ beneath me, Christ above me,
Christ in quiet, Christ in danger,
Christ in hearts of all that love me,
Christ in mouth of friend and stranger.

I bind unto myself the Name,
The strong Name of the Trinity,
By invocation of the same,
The Three in One and One in Three.
By Whom all nature hath creation,
Eternal Father, Spirit, Word:
Praise to the Lord of my salvation,
Salvation is of Christ the Lord.

O Divine Sculptor

practicalmystic — Thu, 06 Apr 2006 19:43:18 +0000

‘I saw the angel in the marble and carved until I set him free.’ (Michelangelo)

“O Divine Sculptor, chisel thou me according to thy desires.” (A prayer taught by Parmahansa Yogananda)
This is my paraphrase of a portion of an informal lecture by a devotee of Yoganana, Brother Anandamoy:

Our souls are like the angel that Michelangelo freed from the marble: perfect and beautiful. The circumstances of our lives are the primary way the Divine Sculptor releases our beautiful soul. Troubles come and a chunk of stone (sin, or in other words that which keeps us from God’s intention) is carved away. This is very painful and we often react by grabbing that big chunk of “stone” and glueing it back on! Troubles come again, often the very same sort of trouble that has plagued us before….and the chunk of “stone” is released once again. When we finally surrender and hang on to God rather than our need to be right and perfect in other’s eyes, that chunk of stone is really gone for good. We no longer have to experience that same set of troubles.

All of life is this process of being sculpted, or rather, being released from this stone that entombs the beautiful soul that is ours as sons and daughters of the Divine Sculptor. It is a most powerful prayer: “O Divine Sculptor, chisel thou me according to thy desires.” I commend it to you but with caution – having one’s soul set free is quite the painful process. But being freed is the point of it all.

The celebration of the resurrection of Christ, the rolling away of the stone from the tomb will soon be upon us. It is tempting as Christians to believe that a simple prayer of repentance or being “born again” frees us in a magical way, suddenly taking away the “stone” of sin from our lives. On a cosmic level, this is true. But on a practical level of life in this plane of existance, the spiritual practice of surrender to Christ requires our daily cooperation. Surrender (i.e. devotion to Christ, not just an intellectual belief) is the process by which the soul is set free.

“O Divine Sculptor, chisel thou me according to thy desires.”

Learning to Pray

practicalmystic — Thu, 26 Jan 2006 16:15:58 +0000

In my sorting through old papers, I came across this reflection I had written 20 years ago randomly tucked in a folder of bits and peices:

“Prayer has always been a mystery to me. My first memories of prayer (other than Grace said before meals) are my early grade school prayers of confession which I deemed necessary for assurance of salvation. At eight, I was taught such theological truths as eternal security and salvation by grace alone. Although relieved of my burden of laborious confessions, I began to wonder what the point of it all was.
For awhile, it was enough to know that Jesus prayed and therefore so should I. But soon I began to wonder anew, why did he bother? Some mystical soul pointed out to me that the book of Revelations describes the prayers of the saints as incense offered to God, as something which delights and pleases him. That’s a beautiful thought to me but I don’t really understand it.
And then there is Paul’s injunction to pray without ceasing! Perfectionist that I am, this verse became another impossible standard to live up to, until I understood it less legalistically.
I still don’t understand prayer. My feelings remain ambivalent. My 5 year old prays in earnest ‘Jesus, I really need your help tonight. You see, I keep wetting my bed and you know all about it. I need you to wake me up. That’s all. Thanks.’ I have tears in my eyes and fear in my soul as I add my unspoken request: ‘Please don’t answer this one with a no! I can’t explain unanswered prayer to a five year old!’
How often we experience deeply the confusion, anger and pain that so-called unanswered prayer brings. We pray ‘Thy will be done’ and hope it is the same as ours.
I don’t have any answers to all the mysteries of prayer but I do know it is God’s gift to us. I do believe prayer is given to us as a means of ‘Practicing the Presence of God,’ a way of remembering that God is present. It connects us with our eternal God…reminds us of our dependence on God…and tells us God’s joy in our existence…It brings us comfort in our loss much as we comfort our children in their sorrows.”

How ironic that at this point in my life, two decades after I wrote this, my primary vocation is meditation and contemplative prayer. And yes, God did say yes to my five-year-old’s prayer but not until we as a family faced a lot of pain. Prayer changes us but not magically. It can take us to the truth. Prayer can reveal to us that which we do not want to see. As Jesus said, “you shall know the truth and the truth shall set you free.”

Sifting and Sorting

practicalmystic — Wed, 25 Jan 2006 17:12:02 +0000

In preparation for a move in March, I’ve been sorting through old papers – things I’ve moved around the past three moves without even thinking about it. 26 garbage bags and two trips to the Salvation Army later, I feel much lighter. There’s something both cathartic and affirming about it all. As I read through things I’ve written, bills I’ve paid, notes of encouragement, little post-it notes from my children reminding me to do something a decade or more ago, I remember the many lessons over these past two decades and find I have learned many of them in spite of myself. Here’s what I think I’ve learned imperfectly but deeply:

1) Trust in God always no matter how horrific life may look.
2) Be a blessing in whatever circumstance life has brought – we are created to be a blessing to others.
3) Say no firmly and repeatedly to anyone who tries to destroy your person.
4) Treat yourself and your life as a gift to unwrap rather than as a thing to endure.
5) Be grateful for the forgiveness of others when you fail them and pass on that forgivness to anyone who has failed you.
6) Never be ashamed of love even if you have loved someone or something that was not worthy of that love. Love is never wasted.
7) Trust that God is placing all around you invisible forms of support to bring you home to God’s heart.
8) Hold on to true friendship but let go of those that fall away from you naturally.
9) Anxiety and depression aren’t necessarily things to avoid. They often are flags to alert you to something you know unconciously but don’t want to see.
10) Believe in your own worth and face your own weaknesses with love.

I’ll probably want to add to this list or modify it over time. But here it is for now.

Huston Smith

practicalmystic — Sat, 19 Nov 2005 17:43:31 +0000

The Soul of Christianity by Huston Smith is like talking with a friend on the journey to authentic Christian faith and practice. To quote from the book cover:

“In this elegant and passionate treatise, the dean of world religions defends the essentials of Christianity, the worlds largest religion. Bestselling author Huston Smith stakes out a path between that of culturally rigid, intolerant evangelical and fundamentalist Christianity and the nontranscendent, liberal Christianity. He presents a convincing argument for a vital alternative that is a deeper more authentic faith, a faith that guided the Church for its first thousand years.”

I’m only through the first chapter so I’ll probably be posting about my readings as the week goes on. My reaction thus far is “Oh thank you Jesus! The world isn’t quite so lonely when I have a freind who asks the same questions, who sees the essence of Christ and finds that we have abandoned that faith for so long.”

While my inner experience of the Holy continues to be rich and powerful, I still find that I long to experience this with others. I’ve rarely found that- for brief moments yes. But when it comes right down to it, this journey is pretty lonely. Perhaps it is the way it must be for no two people truly experience the intimacy of the Holy Almighty quite the same. For the moment, this book helps me to feel less alone.

Seeing the Internet as a Spiritual Resource

practicalmystic — Fri, 18 Nov 2005 16:28:28 +0000

Matt Stone contributed a comment a few weeks ago about meditation. I’m new to this whole blogging adventure so it took me a while to figure out that clicking on his name took me to this marvelous website. I recommend it to you: Matt Stone

From his website, I discovered another one that has Christian classics on-line: Christian Classics Ethereal Library I know that the internet sometimes provides more information than we can handle but I, for one, am quite thankful for it. As with anything else, it can be used for good or ill.

The one thing that stands out to me in these troublesome times is that secrets are much harder to keep. With the information traveling between all countries and time zones, it seems to me that the truth eventually rises to the surface, if one is patient and diligent in seeking that truth.

Jesus told the woman at the well that one day all would worship God “in spirit and in truth.” That we would not have to go to this place or that to find God’s presence but that our very hearts would be changed. Perhaps I am stretching things here but I do find the sense of community that can be had through these mysterious creations called the world wide web bring me a sense of hope that we are closer to that day.

Author unknown

practicalmystic — Wed, 16 Nov 2005 16:23:12 +0000

I asked God for strength, that I might achieve;
I was made weak, that I might learn humbly to obey.
I asked for health, that I might do greater things;
I was given infirmity, that I might do better things.
I asked for riches, that I might be happy;
I was given poverty, that I might be wise.
I asked for power, that I might have the praise of men;
I was given weakness, that I might feel the need for God.
I asked for all things, that I might enjoy life;
I was given life, that I might enjoy all things.
I got nothing that I asked for,
But everything I had hoped for.
Almost, despite myself, my unspoken prayers were answered.
I am, among all men, truly blessed.
(Author Unknown)

Illness and Paradox

practicalmystic — Tue, 15 Nov 2005 20:33:36 +0000

It was my first visit to yet another health care professional. If I counted up the miles, money and minutes spent trying to pull out of this strangle hold of the weird symptoms call Fibromyalgia Syndrome (FMS) , I.d probably be depressed. But I.m not. I.m actually pretty happy most of the time.

After two hours of testing, the chiropractor tells me I.m pretty messed up but he can help. .I.ve heard this before,. I think to myself. .At least he doesn.t think I.m out of my mind or want to drug me into oblivion.. Outwardly, I smile. I tell him I have learned to ride the pain like a wave, knowing it will eventually subside for at least a few hours at a time. I tell him that FMS has been a spiritual journey for me. He again is empathic, thinking I.m speaking of despair.

.It.s been a gift,. I say. And it has. A gift that has led me on a journey of my soul, a journey in which I have learned to embrace the paradoxes of life and to be very wary of anyone preaching dogma.s of certainty or judgment.

I.ve always been more of a mystic than a theologian. It is the wonder of this life rather than the promise of an after life that thrill me. It is seeing and feeling and touching Christ through human beings in real time that makes the Christ of the Cross the Lord of this time not just a man once in Palestine. It is finding God.s love in the disappointments and failures of life that speak to me. Each day, I am reminded to embrace the spiritual practice of joy and to know “in my bones” that control is the most tempting of illusions.

Conversation with God

practicalmystic — Mon, 14 Nov 2005 18:15:12 +0000

Smith climbs to the top of Mt Sinai to get close enough to talk to God. Looking up, he asks the Lord what does a million years mean to you?
“The Lord replies, “A minute “Smith asks, “And what does a million dollars
mean to you ? “The Lord replies,” A penny . “Smith asks ,” Can I
have a penny? The Lord replies,” In a minute .”

Reminders of Grace

practicalmystic — Fri, 11 Nov 2005 15:16:01 +0000

My grandmother taught me to love to walk. She lived next door to us and we walked everywhere together when I was a child. My favorite walk with her was to a restaurant that served “black cows” (now known as Rootbeer floats). Although I loved this treat, it was the journey that I most enjoyed. Walking along, we’d talk of many things and laugh at some. Occassionally, I’d find a penny on the ground and would eagerly pocket this treasure. On each penny was a reminder, Grandma said, a reminder that said “In God We Trust.” Grandma has been gone for many decades now but I still think of her on my daily walks. Most everyday I find at least one penny.

Recently, my husband and I had an appointment with the INS department. My husband is a Canadian citizen which means we have to go through a process of evaluation by our government to determine the genuineness of our marriage. I don.t know about you, but having any government determine the quality of a marriage is a bit of a scary proposition. We came to our appointment armed with a milk crate full of documentation to support our claim of marriage. Actually, the officer with whom we met was all business but also quite respectful. I left the meeting proud to be an American and my husband left the meeting grateful for permission to be working in this country. We were both quite relieved.

As we got back to the car, we happened to each look down at the ground. There, next to the drivers door and then again, next to the passenger door, there was a penny. We picked them up simultaneously and said .In God We Trust.. We.re keeping those pennies; a small treasure with an eternal message.

This is Veterans Day today. I have many questions for the leaders of this country that choose when and why to fight the wars we now fight. However, I will add my prayers today to those of countless mothers, fathers, sisters, brothers, wives, husbands and friends for those who fight in the name of freedom to trust in God. May God bless them and bring them home.

Spiritual Practice

practicalmystic — Tue, 01 Nov 2005 20:37:48 +0000

“How does Christian Meditation differ from Transcendental Meditation? I ask because I consider opening my mind and soul without being specific about what spirit I seek to be dangerous.”

B.P.

I do not know much about Transendental Meditation. However, I do understand your concern. Let me respond on several levels.

To begin with, I do not think the western mind is able to empty itself, both from my own spiritual practice and from what I have learned from others. Our culture effects our neurological system and we simply don’t have the outer structures that allow our minds to become totally silent and empty.

As way of background, the heritage of Christian meditation has been handed down from the Desert Fathers and Mothers; and has been taught through the monastic traditions of the Orthodox, Roman Catholic and Anglican churches. Other forms of Christian meditation have come to us through the Quaker traditions. All involve a focus on the sacred teachings of scripture in one form or another.

Perhaps I can best explain this as silence being held in the chalice of God’s grace. Our minds have the quality of water – our mind takes on the form of whatever we focus on. In other words, what we think, we become.

The “chalice” is the structure we chose for our mind in meditation. The simplest structure is to chant a name of God. Here are some examples:

. Abba Father
. Lord Jesus Christ
. Om Jesu Christi (using Latin or another sacred language to trick your mind to focus on the sacred rather than on re-stimulated memories of what you think God is)
. El Shaddia, Adonia
. Agnus Dei (Lamb of God)

After a time of chanting or listening to a chant or sacred song, then the mind is ready for to bear the silence. It is in this silence that we can notice the presence of God.

Consider this story of Elijah from the Hebrew Scriptures (I Kings 19:11-12 NRSV)

(The Word of the Lord) said, “Go out and stand on the mountain before the Lord, for the Lord is about to pass by.” Now there was a great wind, so strong that it was splitting mountains and breaking rocks in pieces before the Lord, but the Lord was not in the wind; and after the wind an earthquake, but the Lord was not in the earthquake; and after the earthquake a fire, but the Lord was not in the fire; and after the fire a sound of sheer silence.

Learning to Pray

practicalmystic — Sat, 29 Oct 2005 22:25:52 +0000

There is no wrong way to pray. The simplest, purest prayer is this: Help Me. This may be the only prayer you need for some time. Take a deep breath, turn your attention to your heart and simply ask .Help Me..

The beginning of prayer is petition – the prayer of supplication, in the words of St. Issac the Syrian – which is anxious, and weighed down with preoccupations and fears. This is no more than a preparation for true prayer – spiritual prayer – and consists in a gradual ascent towards God in seeking and effort.

Little by little the soul reintegrates itself, regains its unity, and particular petitions begin to disappear and seem superfluous, as God answers prayer by making manifest {God’s} all-embracing providence. There is an end of petition when the soul entrusts itself wholly to the will of God. This state is called “pure prayer.’ It is the end of “praxis” since nothing inconsistent with prayer can any longer gain access to the mind, nor turn aside the will which is now directed toward God, and united to the divine will. The synergy, the harmony of two co-operating wills, continues throughout all stages of ascent towards God; but at a certain level when one leaves the psychic realm, in which the spirit is active, all movement is at an end and even prayer itself ceases. This is the perfecting of prayer and is called the spiritual prayer or contemplation…..it is absolute peace and rest.

The Mystical Theology of the Eastern Church by Vladimir Lossky

Liberating Faith

practicalmystic — Wed, 26 Oct 2005 16:41:28 +0000

“…faith in God can actually be a liberating thing, a breaker down of barriers, a refusal to accept fragmentation as the last word, a stimulus to look beyond understanding, a promise held out to us that truth is one, and truth is great and will prevail.”

John Habgood, Confessions of a Conservative Liberal

Such faith, in my experience, requires spiritual disciplines of prayer, scripture reading, silence, worship (even when we know the church is totally messed up), serving others, and practicing the presence of God through the Jesus Prayer. Without these things, confusion can easily prevail.

My favorite author of fiction is Susan Howatch and most especially her books on the Church of England and her books about the St. Benets healing center. The following quote is from The High Flyer

“He was not just reading the Bible and praying. He was following a discipline which focused him and made it possible for him to realize his full potential. He was lining up his center with the integrating principle at work in the universe, the principle which was ultimately stronger than the drive to fragment. He was tapping into the powers of light which would allow him to live dynamically, surfing the chaos, splitting the darkness, serving his creator by serving others again and again.”

Practicing the Presence of God

practicalmystic — Tue, 25 Oct 2005 18:38:45 +0000

How have you proceeded to develop your relationship with God and enhance your sense of His presence – is meditation the central method or other means?

This has been a very, very long journey. Having been grounded by a chronic illness (fibromyalgia) I have had a great deal of time and inclination to go deeply into spiritual practice. In addtion, I allowed myself to ask questions of faith and to not be afraid of the answers, nor to be afraid of there not being any answers. I can point to books and spiritual practices (see Resources) However, each person needs to “carry their own cross,” i.e. live one’s own indivitual life with all your own foibles and frustrations.

Basically it is a matter of leaning into one’s life just as it is, stripped of illusions as best one can. Secondly and simultaneously, repeat the Jesus Prayer “Lord, Have Mercy on Me a Sinner”

This description of the Jesus Prayer

Questions, Questions, Questions

practicalmystic — Tue, 25 Oct 2005 17:30:44 +0000

I received the following from a friend who has known me for almost 20 years:

Terming your self “The Practical Mystic” is very descriptive. I once described you as being perhaps the most spiritual person I knew and yet grounded in the realities of human life. I certainly have seen evidence of the gifts of the spirit in you.

I do have some questions that might also be of interest to visitors to your web site: I wonder how the spiritual gifts described in the Bible fit in with being a Christian mystic? Are some of them integral to the Christian mystic or are they independent? Also, how have you proceeded to develop your relationship with God and enhance your sense of His presence – is meditation the central method or other means?

I would encourage you to write on the practice of Christian meditation. (Some are practicing transcendental meditation: they open their minds and souls without being specific about the spirit they seek, a practice I consider dangerous.)

I have receieved several such comments and have decided that the best thing to do would be to start a section called “Questions Along the Journey” I’ll address the above questions one at a time. Thank you for asking!